Faith which has so many meanings to the word, can only mean to the indiviual on how the understand the meaning. To me, it is a word l believe in personally and as a christian. l use it as guidance to shape my life and a very personal belief that "l will be wll". Strange when you are ill, what comes up in your head.

It's like medication. The word medication can be defined as, any chemical substance intended for use in the medical diagnosis, cure treatment or prevention of disease. So, can medication be the same as faith? Are we sure of the medicines we take during our illness' will heal us? What assurance do we have that will be healed!

Medication is faith, though we never look at it in the same way. We religiously take our medication as prescribed. We never want to miss a dose because we believe it will protect us from whatever, illness we have. Yet to have faith in believing that there is indeed a GOD, becomes a struggle as a human being. We doubt as we cannot see the medication of faith. We want to see it and feel it to believe, it is what the say it is.

Been ill makes you reflect on your life. It's like out of body experience though l have never experienced it. How many times have you woken up in the middle of the night because you have a strange dream? And the dream may come true 2 days later, then you think, oh. You only confirm it to yourself. You want to find out it meant. It becomes a big question without an answer.

Just like illness. You question youself why me? Have you asked yourself why not me? Who but you should be going through this experience? To accept illness becomes a big issue, but through knowing and understanding you illness gives you an upper hand to live a good life. Being positive about your situation gives you the strength to face anything that will come your way.

Some people write in their dairies about their day to day of understanding what they are going through.