I have been feeling much better these last few days. I can tell by the start of the day. I usually work up at 05:30 am and can't real get going. l will mostly sit and watch T.V and mostly have a bath around lunch time. l can stay in my pajamas until that time. Now, l have a bath as soon as l wake up and get dressed. Go downstairs and have breakfast. Thank you Father, for the secret inner voice that you whisper to me in the night.

l have been asked to lose weight by the doctor's for my heart condition and just for well being. Easier said than done. But l have taken to walking, so l take my granddaughter for walks in the park. She is the best boot camp instructor. She is a year ten months old. l tell you she does not walk, just from the door it's ran, ran. She is on those leash's they have these day's and l get it strapped to me. You get the picture! The energy of this child is so amazing that l get going from 07:00 am. l also, nap when she is napping. She doesn't do crying and always on the go, we dance from 07:00 am until we can go out for a walk. She doesn't like been in door's and wont keep still for a second. So, why pay for the gym when you can get free excise. l am yet to go and get my results tomorrow and will definitely be weighed. So, will see how l have been doing.

Life is complicated in all our lives and it is about finding the balance of what works well with you, within you and the image you send out to others. l have learned a lot during my illness and have accepted so many things that l wasted my energy on stupid things. l think you now have to believe in " being given a second chance in life".
The BIBLE is the mirror of how we all should live our lives as Christians. Doing this is very difficult for all christains as so much is expected of you. However, l have identified and acknowledge the weakness in my soul for me to claim victory in itself. My faith therefore, grows as l day to day live my life for l am indeed growing for the salvation of my soul.

Water as healing therapy:

Water is a very calming therapy and l tend to use it many times as l can. How many time have you heard a friend tell you when you are stressed that "Oh, have a long soak". You will feel much better! But we don't think of the healing power's that water has. Being where l am at the moment has mad me look at all these things that GOD has give us to use in myself healing. l go for long walks, meditates and have rest, because my body can not cope with too much at a time.

l am at the cross road where l feel the medication is too much and l am now reading every small print to see the side-effects. l have to work with my medication and by doing this, l am cutting out much of the pain relief. l am using a lot of alternative therapy like meditation, drinking loads of water, changing my diet. l am finding it more bearable to cope with the pain and actually my skin though still have the rush looks better and the itching isn't that bad. l having being using very strong skin ointimate which has not stopped the itching and still coming out. l was given tablets and a biopsy done but still no results. l will get my results tomorrow and l am waiting for a referal to to the demotologist. l am using what l feel works for me and don't know if it will work for someone else. 

Recently, l had a question about how one should deal with the situation were they are not well and their husband isn't well as well. I sincerely, don't know because l am not in that position. It will be better to work together through the transition and communicate on your condition. l feel it is better because you can share your fears, how fraustrated you are and what next. You can counsel each other and be friends again. Do what you are able to do and don't think it is the end of the world. Just be each other's rock. Re-build your friendship and cut out the negativity of the illness. That is My faith during illness on basing my healing in selfhealing.